Life is good!

So I was looking at my blog last night and I was thinking about how boring it looked because I have so many words and an actual 0 pictures/videos. It must have taken some effort for you guys to wade through my nonsensical posts and come out awake at the other end.... so Im going to start putting in more pictures and videos so you dont feel like your reading the bible or something when you come here :D

Speaking of which I want to post this video. In light of recent events in the news I found this video very needed. I have been though the whole suicide thing with friends back when I was at school and talking helps.

CarlKr can probably say it better than I ever could but the same goes for me. If you need someone to talk to and don't have anyone you feel you can- talk to ME. TALKING HELPS. This should be where the gay community comes together no matter where we are from in support of each other. Dont feel you have to suffer in silence- IT GETS BETTER



Peace

veno

Dear god what an amazing drink... so nothing much has happened in my life since we last spoke. I am now planning on going backpacking to south America with my flat mate next yer though. Oh and I finally have internet in my flat so you will be hearing a lot more of me! :)

OMG no wait thats where I was going with this... So we had a work dinner the other weekend and my boss stupidly felt like she had to invite the CEO who ofcourse said yes. The whole management team was shitting bricks over her coming so instead of stressing I decided I was just going to get wildly drunk and be inappropriate all night. Turns out I decided vodka would be my best weapon... I never realised how good until I woke up the next morning and it all came flooding back. I had a very graphic conversation about my experience with Vaginas.... I dont know that converation is the right word.... It was more me sharing my experiences with the room. I swore.... I spilled my drink... and I cornered the CEO in the kitchen as she was trying to leave and made her HUG ME! This is a woman that none of us like and a woman who goes out of her way to make our lives miserable... Mind you by the sounds of it I was doing a good job in taking the heat off others. One instance I do remember was her making suggestions to one of the other management staff on how to improve her personality and people skills... the worst has to be when she got the hosts 3 year old son on her knee and basically undermined her parenting by thinking that she could get him to stop drinking from his bottle. HES THREE FOR FUCK CAKES... Oh and PS he isnt your kid.

Shes not even a person I would recommend going too for parenting advice... her daughter does the folding for us (letters and such) at work and she has a face like a dropped pie. I wouldnt be surprised if the CEO took her home and breat her for being such a dissapointment.

So anyway Monday was rather an embarrassing day but come thursday it was completely forgotten and she(the CEO) has now set her sights on completely destroying and confidence that our receptionist has in herself. Which fucks me right off because without her the complany would be literally fucked! Funny thing is She screamed and shouted at our receptinist the other day and now has been caught/overheard saying that @she is just a receptionist and isnt worthy of an appology@... what a cunt right?! So Im going out of my way to be difficult in silent support of the receptionist!

Anyway I have that feeling where you know how after you fuck or wank and you needa pee.... totally have that from looking up some sweet xtube shit so I gtg but I hope you are all well...

xx

Porn at Work?! NEVER... okay maybe some times

Hey gorgeous people!

So i have a funny story for you! I have just moved in to a new place with my friend and we dont have internet hooked up yet so I have been sneakily using facebook, buying shit and emailing at work.... and when no one else was around.... when the place was empty and I was there alone the occasional video on Xtube. This place is sooo fucking backwards with technology that I didn't think anyone would notice! In the whole center of over 60 people I am the one who seems to know the most about computers and by todays standards thats fuck all....


Anyway I get this email the other day- "We need to stop using our computers for personal use as there has been a lot of inappropriate activity lately" this was sent out to all management... Its like they know but they seem to be too embarrassed to say anything HAHAHA. I actually couldn't really care less if they bring it up so as long as they're too scared I figure Ill keep doing it until I get net sorted at home!!

Anyway I decided that I don't really like that guy that came around the other day but I have been dying for a fuck lately which isn't really like me. Mind you its usually because Im getting action- I now know how people who don't have sex feel and trust me... life isn't good for those people. The amount of inappropriate erections Iv had! Lucky Im not the kind of person to break out into a sweat and run out of a room trying to hide my tent!! Jesus how do these people do it??

Thats another thing I don't get... people in a relationship who stop having sex. When i was with my ex we had it over 9 times a week for sure. I don't get how people are like "the love just inst there" - guys Its just sex- you don't have to love someone to put your dick in them! .... Well i don't anyway- does this make me a bad person? I don think so- some times the best sex is the sex where you dont care about the other person! Thats where it can just be what it as and both people can just get exactly what they want and be done with it when its over.

I always wonder though am I speaking for myself? Or is this like a common thing?

god I love sex!

Also on a non sex note- I want to get one of those county things so I can see how many- (if any) times this thing gets read by people. As much as I love talking to myself it seems kind of silly to waste time writing it down. Does anyone know how to get one of those things??

Hope you guys are swell- shit weather on the way to where I am... woohoo

xoxo

Depressive People and my Surprise Obsession

Hey kids!

Looks who's posting again! and in less than a month!

So I have been sneakily following this girl on facebook... okay so its kind of stalking! But she has the most depressing status updates... shit like "why does no one care about me" and "I wish this pain would stop". It makes me so angry when people use facebook as a sympathy tool! If you really need to get sympathy from people over facebook to make yourself feel good about yourself you are seriously fucked up and need proper help. Im sure we all have enough shit to deal with in our own lives to want to have to put up with your shit! I prefer people who have the random updates... My friend Amy fascinates me with the random crap she posts- her most recent funny was "Sure the neighbors had to trim their hedge so I cant crap with the door open any more"

My surprise obsession--- DUN DUN DUN!

Okay so I know I talk about it all the time but the whole situation with the Ex's best friend. I always catch myself analysing the whole situation and then posting about it on here. I need to snap out of it and make a decision and get over it. I was fucked over SO WHAT!? People get fucked every day... what makes me so special that I get to make such a big deal out of it? Sure its entertaining but at the end of the day I dont actually care that much about it any more. I think the whole thing that spurred this was I was reading through my older posts and they all seem to be about him.

What a big waste of my time. I could have written many more things about something way cooler... i.e. ME! :D

Thinking about that I just had a mental block when I was planning to write something amazing and insightful about myself :S

I will put it to you- f there is anything about me you would like to know let me know and I will post about it for all to read :D

Anyway just a quick one today

Hope you are all okay!

xoxoxo

La vida loca

,Hey kids!!

So turns out I'm a pretty shifty blogger!

New in my life- I have been researching America more... I'm thinking that I will go on camp America and teach horse riding and see how I like the country and go from there... Sound like a good plan??

Also turns out that the ex's best friend that I was sleepin with has now become a bit creepy slash clingy... I still kind of want to fuck him but I'm having an ethical issue... Do I keep stringing him along to get what I want- I mean at the end of the day he did lie to me... Plus I think he may have a bf now... Who has also been an asshole to me in the past. Do I fuck both of them over to get what I want? Or do I be the bigger person and leave them to it? One is most definitely more fun than the other... Possibly a coin toss moment.

Also I need some advice on other boy related matters.. If a guy comes back to stay after a night in town and you spend the whole next day together and the boy suggests that you go to the movies together soon- what are the chances tha he likes you? I would have thought a bit high... But then we decide to just watch a mvie at my place and he comes over and doesn't try to make any kind of move... What's the deal then??? He's fucking sexy and I think I like him but I don't know if he likes me back and I'm not in to making myself look like a cunt in public So I don't really want to outright ask... HELP!

Anyway just a quick one today... I have to babysit tonight woohoo lol

hope you are all swell

loves xoxox

Lying Cheating Whores

Hi guys.... I'm guessing it probably seems pretty random that it was like 8 months ago that I did my last post... (and it was only my second). I kind of gave up! To be honest I didn't even realise I had any comments on the first two posts. So thanks guys for that!!!

Not much has changed with me... Im still working in the same place. I managed to graduate though so yayness to me! Still living in the same old shitter or a city!

So I will try and catch you up to my life in the most brief way:

1- I was "cheated on" by my ex's best friend
2- I found out my ex had been cheating on me
3- I got felt up by 2 straight guys about 6 months back
4- One of them told me he had 2 months to live
5- ... hes still alive
6- I started shagging my ex's best friend again
7- I stopped shagging my ex's best friend
8- Dad had a heart attack
9- mum had an operation
10- I did a bungy jump
11- My friend visited me for a month (from Ireland)
12- We drank loads
13- I slept with a homeless guy
14- I went snorkeling with sharks
15- A bit of rock wall climbing
16- We went white water rafting
17- we sobered up
18- We got drunk again
19- I got in a bar fight with an army dude
20- ... I won
21- I got thrown out of the club
22- Watched my first rugby game
23- HAD to get drunk
24- Irish friend went home
25- I had to sober up alone
26- I started writing this blog entry.

I think thats all the most interesting stuff.... OH and I found out that this guy I wanna shag that works in my building (who I thought was for sure gay) is married with a kid.

So anyway... The whole thing with my ex and his best friend... its kind of twisted. I found out that him and my ex had slept together while we were going out (plus he slept with a whole bunch of other people). But for some reason I kept shagging him. It did kind of end up working in my favor though because no he really likes me and I don't want any thing to do with him. Its brilliant- he keeps ringing me and leaving messages and facebooking me- Normally I'm not this sadistic- but he lied to me about sleeping with my ex and then again about being with someone when we started fucking. REVENGE IS SWEET!

As far as him and this whole place I'm living in goes... Iv had enough! So I have now decided to set myself a goal- I am sure you are all dying to hear it!

So I'm moving in to a new place with one of my closest friends and she is going to help me get fit etc etc- less smoking (probably still the same amount of drinking though... maybe a bit more) and THEN I'm going to head to New York.

I don't know what the pull is- maybe its Sex and the City that did it??? Who knows but I want to start saving like mad and hopefully I will make it by this time 2011... or 12 :P

If anyone has done this sort of thing before it would be great to hear from you and hear how it all works- I haven't been to far out of my own country- let alone on my own- let alone to live. So I'm thinking whats the best airline? whats the best area to live? How much money do you think I will need? How do I go about getting a work visa? Can you guarantee that I will be frisked upon entry?

Anyway would be great to hear from anyone and hopefully get some more followers... I plan on making this a more regular thing I promise.

Anyway... its 10 o'clock on a Friday... what am I still doing sober??

Have a great weekend lovelies!

xoxo

Happy New Year!

Well the New Year has started off with a hiss and a roar. I hope your night was as amazing and alcohol fueled as mine was! We welcomed in 10 with a few friends a BBQ a broken picnic table and a smidgen of Mary-j (not for me of course... I don't do drugs).

boy do I have a story for you... My friend Joan and her b/f John (names changed of course) came over for NYE and started the night off having a row about their relationship in front of us all and made the whole deal awkward... it went on for ages and eventually I got sick of hearing it and got loud and obnoxious. So much so that they eventually couldn't even hear each other. Anyway turns out one of their problems is that John wants to try out cock and that whole night Jean kept hinting to the fact.

I was completely trashed and seemed to think she was only joking but I was to find out later that I was oh so wrong! Joan accidentally picked up my car keys and took them home with her which was fine because it was easy enough for her to drop them around to me NYD or today. So later the next night I was on Facebook and I got an IM from Joan but it was John on her account.

One thing led to another and John got quite dirty online and filled me in that Joan hadn't been joking and he really did want to try cock. Apparently on NY I had drunkenly blurted out that I didn't find John remotely attractive to Joan and that is why she hadn't just come out and asked me if I would fuck her boyfriends ass for her.

Anyway I chatted to Joan and told her I would do it only as a favor to her because my reasoning was that I think she is too good for him and if I can make him enjoy it then they can break up and she can finally be happy... with someone who doesn't hold her back.

Anyway he ended up coming around and we fucked... well I fucked him and it was soooooo awkward! But the thing is I can act completely normal after sex but I have a feeling that John will be all weird. I made it clear to John that this was only a favor to Joan and once we were done I told him to leave. It had to be the weirdest ever way to start the year.

Has this kind of thing ever happened to you? If so fill me in!!