Monday, October 25, 2010

Gay at work...

Okay so In my job I am a manager which means I am responsible for staff- currently I manage three teams of approximately 14 people (42 people in total for those of you playing at home). As far as my sexuality in this matter goes- Everyone knows that I am gay- I refuse to hide it if I am asked but I choose to not openly talk about it to my staff. This is because A)Its none of their business and B) I would preferr it if I was in their position that my manager didnt talk about thier love life gay or straight. They are there to manage and that is all- and this is how I like to conduct myself.

But what happens when you find one day that some of your younger and more immature staff have been making comments about your sexuality behind your back?

This is the position I find myself in. From what I have heard plenty of my staff are quite happy with who I am and how I manage but it has grabbed me more that I thought it would to have these comments made about my private life. I understand that this is something which shouldnt interfeer with our professional relationship and I am going to try my hardest to look at these people only as employees and not the individuals who make such nasty comments about me. How would you deal with this?

I am the kind of person manager who prides himself being professional, effective and fair in my management style- How do I not let this get in the way of how I do my job?

I think Im right in keeping my personal life my own unless I am asked- but maybe this isnt the best way to do business? Maybe its easier (not nessecarily better) to simply lie through ommission? I have told a few of my close colleague whom I know outside of work but perhaps I should have lied or answered the question in a round-about way?

Your thoughts...

xo

Saturday, October 23, 2010

GREEK!


Γεια σας παιδιά!


Ελπίζω τις ημέρες σας έχει πάει καλά! Πίστευα ότι σήμερα θα ήθελα να υπηρετούν στα ελληνικά από το μάθηση είναι σαν νέα τρέλα μου! Έχω αποφασίσει να ξεκινήσει την εκμάθηση, επειδή ο αδελφός μου και η οικογένειά του ζει στην Κρήτη. Η ανηψιά Το μωρό μου-και δεν είναι τόσο το μωρό πια δεδομένου ότι είναι σχεδόν τρεις μπορεί να μιλήσει ελληνικά (αν και όχι πάρα πολύ) οπότε είμαι ενθουσιασμένος για να είναι σε θέση να της μιλήσω όταν θα πάρει τελικά γύρω από την επίσκεψη!


Σε άλλες ειδήσεις, έχω βρει μια νέα θέση εργασίας που εγώ είμαι πρόκειται να υποβάλουν αίτηση για. Του κατ 'ουσίαν το ίδιο πεδίο με το τι είμαι εργασίας στο τώρα που είναι συγκέντρωση χρημάτων για φιλανθρωπικούς σκοπούς. Αλλά πιο διαφοροποιημένη δεδομένου ότι καλύπτει τον συντονισμό και την εκδήλωση παρόμοιων πράγματα που θα μου επιτρέψετε να σταματήσει επιτέλους το πτυχίο μου για την καλή χρήση! Είμαι συνάντηση με το φίλο μου αύριο Toni να πάει πάνω μου βιογραφικό και τη συνοδευτική επιστολή, που είναι το πιο καταπληκτικό άτομο και γράφοντας αυτά τα πράγματα. Θα μπορούσε λίγο πολύ να πάρει οποιαδήποτε θέση εργασίας που ζητείται, έχει αυτό το μεγάλο ταλέντο του να πάρει ακριβώς αυτό που ο εργοδότης θέλει να ακούσει - το οποίο είναι καλό γιατί είμαι σκατά σε αυτό!







Hi guys!


I hope your days has been going well! I thought that today I would post in Greek since learning it is like my new craze! I've decided to start learning because my brother and his family live in Crete. My baby niece- well not so baby anymore since she is almost three  can talk Greek (although not too much) so I am excited about being able to talk to her when I eventually get around to visiting!


In other news- I have found a new job that I am going to apply for. Its in essentially the same field as what I am working in now which is fundraising for charities. But more diverse in that it covers event coordination and things similar which would allow me to finally put my degree to good use! I'm meeting with my friend Toni tomorrow to go over my resume and cover letter- she is the most amazing person and writing those things. She could pretty much get any job she applied for- she has this great talent of picking exactly what the employer wants to hear - which is good because I am shit at it!

Friday, October 22, 2010

Cant sleep

CANT SLEEP! So I thought I would stop by and share my new found crush- Jay Brannan




This will help me get to sleep....

xo

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Embarrasing

Okay so this is kind of an embarrassing story that I have to tell... But I feel I need to tell someone. Also I haven't really had much entertaining happen in my life so this will be good for your guys too.

So admittedly I'm a horny little bitch but I never realized how low I was willing to stoop for a fuck until the other week. This story kind of starts a few years ago- Im not sure how it is in other countries but quite often the young guys with racy cars will put their numbers on the back of their cars to feign selling them just so they can meet chicks. Its kind of sad really. Anyway this one sexy guy drove past me one day and I was in a dirty mood so I txt him. At first he wasn't really keen but he kept talking to me so I thought why not keep trying-

Well it was an actuall few months before I met him because I was only passing through the city where I now live. So I went around to his place and sucked him off which was hot since he was straight (well as far as he would let me believe). We kept txting after a while and he started suggesting some really weird shit like wearing chicks underwear- I guess you can all tell where this is leading but at the time I was this naive newly outed gay who wasn't really aware of just how sexually deviant some people are. It kind of scared me off- because it went from dropping subtle hints of wearing panties to openly talking about dressing as a chick with a wig and make up and shit to sending me messages like "bend Tammy over tonight?". I'm guessing this was his whore of an alter egos name.



So it freaked me out and I stopped txting him. Anyway the other night I was feeling really horny since Iv decided to stop 'entertaining' Rob (dear god that makes me sound like a geisha). So I decided to txt him- hoping that he would get the message "no I would rather bend Sam over... Tammy freaks me out" and kind of get the not so subtle hint that I think cross dressers are freaky.

Well you think that would have stopped him but nope- up he rocks in stockings a lacy g- a black wig- makeup AND gigantic wedge heels- hes a tall guy- I'm 6 foot and with his heels we was like 6'4. I figured at the time what the hell - hes here and I'm horny as fuck.

Have you ever had that immediate feeling of regret when you cum- like your cock kind of possesses your body and makes you do strange things when your horny and then a s soon as you cum all sense of reason and decency come flooding back and your like "OMG what the fuck did I just do?" Well I got that feeling which made things pretty awkward since he was lying there expecting me to get him off too and I just turned round and got dressed... Anyway thats kind of one of my biggest darkest secrets- and now you all know!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Eye Candy


So- although I love to be a crazy fool- I think that this type of guy would be the perfect type for me. Gorgeous yes- but he seems to have that old school country club kind of look about him... maybe that makes me some kind of serial social climber? I don't know but when I picture my perfect guy I always picture him well dressed with an air of snobbery about him.

Anyway- in other news- we have some advancements on the America thing. My and Paz are going to be heading to south america for about 3 months next year just backpacking. I super excited- I've been to like Singapore-Turkey-Greece and the UK but never backpacking only family holidays. To me this will be the first official OE- Paz is going to be amazing to travel with because shes done it all before so I know I will be in safe hands.

In other other news- The ex' best friend- who I have decided to give a name since its becoming annoying to write "the ex's best friend" all the time- from now on he will be called Rob. So Rob has been trying to get back with me ever since I caught him going through my phone that night he stayed over. This whole shitty situation has made me realize that i am actually really enjoying being single- I don't have anyone to answer to. I can come and go as I please. I only have myself to impress. I can now actually spend more time caring about what I think of myself and not what others think. It's nice to have time to realize that I actually quite like myself. I know it sounds quite egotistical but what you must understand it that my ex came from a really close family and for two years I spent my time trying to impress not only him but his four sisters and dad (who loves his son but hates the fact hes gay). Its like I forgot who I was- I lost a lot of friends being with him. Some of the closest friends I ever had I now no longer speak to. Being single has helped me to find out who I was again and get in touch with all of these people who I was once so close to.

Ok so Im kind of waffling a bit but I have one thing to ask anyone who reads this. I have an awards dinner to go to soon and I am trying to think of what to wear. I think I have settled on grey pin stripe pants and waist coat with a black shirt underneath.


Similar to this guy only minus the ugly shirt and no tie. Plus I think my grey is a bit paler. What do you think???

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Life is good!

So I was looking at my blog last night and I was thinking about how boring it looked because I have so many words and an actual 0 pictures/videos. It must have taken some effort for you guys to wade through my nonsensical posts and come out awake at the other end.... so Im going to start putting in more pictures and videos so you dont feel like your reading the bible or something when you come here :D

Speaking of which I want to post this video. In light of recent events in the news I found this video very needed. I have been though the whole suicide thing with friends back when I was at school and talking helps.

CarlKr can probably say it better than I ever could but the same goes for me. If you need someone to talk to and don't have anyone you feel you can- talk to ME. TALKING HELPS. This should be where the gay community comes together no matter where we are from in support of each other. Dont feel you have to suffer in silence- IT GETS BETTER



Peace

Monday, October 11, 2010

veno

Dear god what an amazing drink... so nothing much has happened in my life since we last spoke. I am now planning on going backpacking to south America with my flat mate next yer though. Oh and I finally have internet in my flat so you will be hearing a lot more of me! :)

OMG no wait thats where I was going with this... So we had a work dinner the other weekend and my boss stupidly felt like she had to invite the CEO who ofcourse said yes. The whole management team was shitting bricks over her coming so instead of stressing I decided I was just going to get wildly drunk and be inappropriate all night. Turns out I decided vodka would be my best weapon... I never realised how good until I woke up the next morning and it all came flooding back. I had a very graphic conversation about my experience with Vaginas.... I dont know that converation is the right word.... It was more me sharing my experiences with the room. I swore.... I spilled my drink... and I cornered the CEO in the kitchen as she was trying to leave and made her HUG ME! This is a woman that none of us like and a woman who goes out of her way to make our lives miserable... Mind you by the sounds of it I was doing a good job in taking the heat off others. One instance I do remember was her making suggestions to one of the other management staff on how to improve her personality and people skills... the worst has to be when she got the hosts 3 year old son on her knee and basically undermined her parenting by thinking that she could get him to stop drinking from his bottle. HES THREE FOR FUCK CAKES... Oh and PS he isnt your kid.

Shes not even a person I would recommend going too for parenting advice... her daughter does the folding for us (letters and such) at work and she has a face like a dropped pie. I wouldnt be surprised if the CEO took her home and breat her for being such a dissapointment.

So anyway Monday was rather an embarrassing day but come thursday it was completely forgotten and she(the CEO) has now set her sights on completely destroying and confidence that our receptionist has in herself. Which fucks me right off because without her the complany would be literally fucked! Funny thing is She screamed and shouted at our receptinist the other day and now has been caught/overheard saying that @she is just a receptionist and isnt worthy of an appology@... what a cunt right?! So Im going out of my way to be difficult in silent support of the receptionist!

Anyway I have that feeling where you know how after you fuck or wank and you needa pee.... totally have that from looking up some sweet xtube shit so I gtg but I hope you are all well...

xx