On Hiatus

Okay sorry guys I have not really had the energy to blog in a LONG time! 

A lot of shit has been going on in my life quite recently- the first and probably the most exciting is that I finally got a bite and had a job interview today. OMG I had to do a typing test and I was so nervous I only managed 47 words a minute- thank god the minimum requirement is 30 (I would like to point out I got 97% accuracy though).

Point number 2- we had our '6 month inspection' the other week and spent the weekend making the place presentable- By presentable Im not just talking ding the dishes and giving the dust a wipe- Im talking buying a lawn mower AND Vacuum cleaner and going nuts! - Wait it gets better- the inspection is while I am at work so I dont really get to see how the whole thing goes down but from what I hear it went a little something like this:

Paz: "Welcome landlords to our wonderful home"

Aunty Cole: "Yes welcome to the home what love built"

Paz: "Some may even compare us to a nun- we don't ever have sex- we don't even have genitals."

Aunty Cole: "No drinking allowed in this house... in fact we have a rule against anything 'fun'- We just live here and clean... We are good tenants you see and that is what good tenants do."

Paz: "Please wont you come in."

Christian Landlord: "We want you to move out because we are moving in!"

So basically the last couple of weeks have been spent looking for places to live... and WE GOT ONE! Thanks to Paz and Aunty Cole everything has been taken care of- It makes me feel kind of inadequate and lazy. its not that I didnt want to help its just they seem to be 2+/- 1 step ahead... anyway without much help from me we are moving this weekend which I am super excited about!!!

Now on to the not so good news. Rowdy (ex's ex best friend) got back in contact with me which makes me not so happy but I am thinking of just getting him around for a bit of a spoon- not even sex just feeling like cuddles at the moment. 

I have been kind of like that for a while and Im not sure why but even more now because I found out last night that a friend of mine who I used to work with and had THE biggest crush on was killed in a car accident only the day before. So Im a little down at the moment and I think the reason I decided to do this post was because I dont really feel like I can talk to any of my friend about it because I dont want to drag them down either... lets call it blog therapy? 

So I dont know what this is but its something I caught myself writing mindlessly after I was given the bad news. Im not sure that it will make sense to anyone but me but I feel the need to get it out of my system.

I used to think about almost every day

When you smiled it made me smile
When we talked it gave me butterflies
When you laughed it made me sick with 'feelings'
When we laughed together I felt on top of the world

When you left I was sad
When you promised to keep in touch I held on to hope
When you didnt keep your promise I was distraught
When I started to get over you I saw you again

Then it started from the beginning
like a circle
Never seeming to end

Now youre gone for good

I think of all the things I could have said
I think of all the things I should have said
I think of all the things I wish I had said
I think of all the things I will never get to say

I miss you
I have missed you
I will never forget you