Embarrasing

Okay so this is kind of an embarrassing story that I have to tell... But I feel I need to tell someone. Also I haven't really had much entertaining happen in my life so this will be good for your guys too.

So admittedly I'm a horny little bitch but I never realized how low I was willing to stoop for a fuck until the other week. This story kind of starts a few years ago- Im not sure how it is in other countries but quite often the young guys with racy cars will put their numbers on the back of their cars to feign selling them just so they can meet chicks. Its kind of sad really. Anyway this one sexy guy drove past me one day and I was in a dirty mood so I txt him. At first he wasn't really keen but he kept talking to me so I thought why not keep trying-

Well it was an actuall few months before I met him because I was only passing through the city where I now live. So I went around to his place and sucked him off which was hot since he was straight (well as far as he would let me believe). We kept txting after a while and he started suggesting some really weird shit like wearing chicks underwear- I guess you can all tell where this is leading but at the time I was this naive newly outed gay who wasn't really aware of just how sexually deviant some people are. It kind of scared me off- because it went from dropping subtle hints of wearing panties to openly talking about dressing as a chick with a wig and make up and shit to sending me messages like "bend Tammy over tonight?". I'm guessing this was his whore of an alter egos name.

So it freaked me out and I stopped txting him. Anyway the other night I was feeling really horny since Iv decided to stop 'entertaining' Rob (dear god that makes me sound like a geisha). So I decided to txt him- hoping that he would get the message "no I would rather bend Sam over... Tammy freaks me out" and kind of get the not so subtle hint that I think cross dressers are freaky.

Well you think that would have stopped him but nope- up he rocks in stockings a lacy g- a black wig- makeup AND gigantic wedge heels- hes a tall guy- I'm 6 foot and with his heels we was like 6'4. I figured at the time what the hell - hes here and I'm horny as fuck.

Have you ever had that immediate feeling of regret when you cum- like your cock kind of possesses your body and makes you do strange things when your horny and then a s soon as you cum all sense of reason and decency come flooding back and your like "OMG what the fuck did I just do?" Well I got that feeling which made things pretty awkward since he was lying there expecting me to get him off too and I just turned round and got dressed... Anyway thats kind of one of my biggest darkest secrets- and now you all know!

Porn at Work?! NEVER... okay maybe some times

Hey gorgeous people!

So i have a funny story for you! I have just moved in to a new place with my friend and we dont have internet hooked up yet so I have been sneakily using facebook, buying shit and emailing at work.... and when no one else was around.... when the place was empty and I was there alone the occasional video on Xtube. This place is sooo fucking backwards with technology that I didn't think anyone would notice! In the whole center of over 60 people I am the one who seems to know the most about computers and by todays standards thats fuck all....


Anyway I get this email the other day- "We need to stop using our computers for personal use as there has been a lot of inappropriate activity lately" this was sent out to all management... Its like they know but they seem to be too embarrassed to say anything HAHAHA. I actually couldn't really care less if they bring it up so as long as they're too scared I figure Ill keep doing it until I get net sorted at home!!

Anyway I decided that I don't really like that guy that came around the other day but I have been dying for a fuck lately which isn't really like me. Mind you its usually because Im getting action- I now know how people who don't have sex feel and trust me... life isn't good for those people. The amount of inappropriate erections Iv had! Lucky Im not the kind of person to break out into a sweat and run out of a room trying to hide my tent!! Jesus how do these people do it??

Thats another thing I don't get... people in a relationship who stop having sex. When i was with my ex we had it over 9 times a week for sure. I don't get how people are like "the love just inst there" - guys Its just sex- you don't have to love someone to put your dick in them! .... Well i don't anyway- does this make me a bad person? I don think so- some times the best sex is the sex where you dont care about the other person! Thats where it can just be what it as and both people can just get exactly what they want and be done with it when its over.

I always wonder though am I speaking for myself? Or is this like a common thing?

god I love sex!

Also on a non sex note- I want to get one of those county things so I can see how many- (if any) times this thing gets read by people. As much as I love talking to myself it seems kind of silly to waste time writing it down. Does anyone know how to get one of those things??

Hope you guys are swell- shit weather on the way to where I am... woohoo

xoxo

Lying Cheating Whores

Hi guys.... I'm guessing it probably seems pretty random that it was like 8 months ago that I did my last post... (and it was only my second). I kind of gave up! To be honest I didn't even realise I had any comments on the first two posts. So thanks guys for that!!!

Not much has changed with me... Im still working in the same place. I managed to graduate though so yayness to me! Still living in the same old shitter or a city!

So I will try and catch you up to my life in the most brief way:

1- I was "cheated on" by my ex's best friend
2- I found out my ex had been cheating on me
3- I got felt up by 2 straight guys about 6 months back
4- One of them told me he had 2 months to live
5- ... hes still alive
6- I started shagging my ex's best friend again
7- I stopped shagging my ex's best friend
8- Dad had a heart attack
9- mum had an operation
10- I did a bungy jump
11- My friend visited me for a month (from Ireland)
12- We drank loads
13- I slept with a homeless guy
14- I went snorkeling with sharks
15- A bit of rock wall climbing
16- We went white water rafting
17- we sobered up
18- We got drunk again
19- I got in a bar fight with an army dude
20- ... I won
21- I got thrown out of the club
22- Watched my first rugby game
23- HAD to get drunk
24- Irish friend went home
25- I had to sober up alone
26- I started writing this blog entry.

I think thats all the most interesting stuff.... OH and I found out that this guy I wanna shag that works in my building (who I thought was for sure gay) is married with a kid.

So anyway... The whole thing with my ex and his best friend... its kind of twisted. I found out that him and my ex had slept together while we were going out (plus he slept with a whole bunch of other people). But for some reason I kept shagging him. It did kind of end up working in my favor though because no he really likes me and I don't want any thing to do with him. Its brilliant- he keeps ringing me and leaving messages and facebooking me- Normally I'm not this sadistic- but he lied to me about sleeping with my ex and then again about being with someone when we started fucking. REVENGE IS SWEET!

As far as him and this whole place I'm living in goes... Iv had enough! So I have now decided to set myself a goal- I am sure you are all dying to hear it!

So I'm moving in to a new place with one of my closest friends and she is going to help me get fit etc etc- less smoking (probably still the same amount of drinking though... maybe a bit more) and THEN I'm going to head to New York.

I don't know what the pull is- maybe its Sex and the City that did it??? Who knows but I want to start saving like mad and hopefully I will make it by this time 2011... or 12 :P

If anyone has done this sort of thing before it would be great to hear from you and hear how it all works- I haven't been to far out of my own country- let alone on my own- let alone to live. So I'm thinking whats the best airline? whats the best area to live? How much money do you think I will need? How do I go about getting a work visa? Can you guarantee that I will be frisked upon entry?

Anyway would be great to hear from anyone and hopefully get some more followers... I plan on making this a more regular thing I promise.

Anyway... its 10 o'clock on a Friday... what am I still doing sober??

Have a great weekend lovelies!

xoxo